the next stage

my god, I'm so glad this week is over.

It's been sooo busy, and I'm so glad I got through all my work. That said, I'm pretty sure I did not do very well in both of my tests, and our projects are hopefully up to scratch. Oh uni, it seems like I need to put so much more effort this year.

So, I figured out that we have 400% of work (100 marks for four subjects) this semester. 200% is roughly our exams, and the remaining 200% is coursework. We did 61% in ONE week. Kill me now.

The guys I hang around now, Henry, Long and Wil, are pretty good though. Pretty hardworking, with the right amount of procrastination in between for my liking. A bit of asian nerdism thrown in, with the computer geekness..they're a good bunch, and hopefully we can do some stuff outside of uni for once (Iron man 2 is the plan I think).

I also attended a funeral this morning, and although it made things a bit hectic (had an assignment and a test due today as well!), I was glad I could go to show support for my friend. Even though we weren't close, I'd like to think that I can be counted on when it matters. My thoughts are with my friend and his/her family.

Funerals have a weird effect on me. Even though I did not know the person who had passed away, the grief around me took over at one point, and I couldn't stop the tears. I guess it's sort of like an empathy of the people around you?
And they always put everything into perspective. Mysteries of Death. Your own funeral. Afterlife. People you care about the most. Self reflection. These are a few of the thoughts that I pondered today.

And everyone at uni thought I was a douche for showing up in a suit. 

teoh,

expanding my interests

my mainstream music stuff is slowly expanding out.

jay sean - war, lights out, fire
jason harwell - somewhere the sun, pray
muse - resistance, undisclosed desires
adam lambert - whataya want from me
living end - white noise
chris brown - forever
mika - happy ending
red hot shili peppers (found it in my harddrive) - snow hey oh, dani california
train - hey soul sister
taylor swift (lol) - you belong to me, love story
akon - beautiful
afterhouse - halfway gone

is something what my playlist is looking like at the moment =]

teoh,

oh my..

My internet speeds have just kicked in. After years of mediocre internet services...wow.

I watched one movie...when I had finished watching it, I had two new movies. And a game. (all legally of course.)

Up In the Air is a very good movie. 

This was such a bad time to god-like internet. I'm gonna have to remember that with great power, comes great responsibility haha. If I get capped on my first month, shame.

teoh,

intra-seeking

first, a little daily update.

my dad has just left yesterday off to singapore, and my brother shall be making his way to the airport to japan soon. only myself and magie at home now, it's going to be lonely = my new strict wake up routine: wake up early, check if laundry needs to be done (if so, do it), take magie for a walk, hang out said laundry, eat breakfast while making lunch, decide what to have for dinner, and then go to uni/work. Wish all my family safe travels and have fun! Bring me back gifts =]

my internet will hopefully be upgraded in the next 24-48 hours to the new telstra super cable, which is apparently much faster than what we have, with double capacity (25gb cap) and it's 20 bucks cheaper (49.95) =]

also, went to a workmate's house yesterday and played poker (with a different group) surprisingly I almost won the pot ($120), and came 2nd in the tournament. Was able to win my buy in back, so no money loss, entertainment profit win!

also saw anthea today, she's such a lovely girl. love catching up with her and just talking about anything.

thoughts:

I have decided to begin a self discovery journey. I realised I no longer know who I am, despite this line being very cliche and dramatic. What I mean is that, I wouldn't know how to describe myself anymore. I don't know what kind of person I am, how I am acting, what I am doing. I have utterly lost myself, not in a depressing way, but certainly concerning.

this journey begins effectively immediately. I'm going to start thinking who I think I am, and who I want to be.

edit: I also realised some of my tags are severely lacking in posts. Will try and post more specific posts in the future, instead of a blind post dump.

teoh,

'night out.

happy 21st amanda and sharon. it was a good night out. still tired, so will do this in dot points.

fun to catch up with quite a few people. jali is still strange and funny. sam is such a mother (sat behind me so she could keep an eye on my speedometer). tim is so fashionable. saw hong dance haha.

speeches went alright. some nice improv and some not so nice improve haha. dave smashed them all with a great singing voice and talented guitar playing. awesome.

missed out on cake. >.<>

venue was nice: Moroccan Lounge. I liked the nice big sofa/bed thing, though more softness required.

and finally. after a year. talked to grace.

feel it all wash away. thanks dave for the extra 10 minutes. I know it must've killed you.

teoh.

opening my eyes

so the weekend is over, and carolyn is now in the safe hands of her mother and her friends. thankfully, nothing completely disastrous happened with her time with me, and I hope she had least had a good time.

thank you to all my friends who came over on friday night; I know I was probably a little stressed out, the whole day was just too crammed and I was way too nervous. She deemed you all 'lovely' (she loved tim's drama actions and story telling) and enjoyed your company, so thank you all for making it a good night for her...as opposed to my shocking performance in hats T_T

we ended up having a good time in the city, split up in two blocks of morning-early afternoon, and evening-late night, with a nap in the middle. I noticed she loved her naps in NZ, and it was no different in Melbourne haha which I thought was kind of amusing. We found some nice shops in little collins street, but hit the jackpot when we went to the book market at fed square, where she bought 8 books haha. Ling, you would've loved her choices.

comedy fest was awesome, arj barker was very good. His opening star wars joke sold it for me, along with some others. They weren't jokes you can simply tell, but needed good delivery, and he did it very well.

dandenong ranges was also quite good, the shops with little 'knick knacks' were right up her alley I guess, though the walk was kinda dull as I didn't really know where it led, so we just wandered around for abit. the tea house there was pretty good for breakfast too. *bookmarks in head*

So that was the weekend, and again I hope she had a great time.

the weekend kinda opened my eyes to what a city we have, the things we can do and to appreciate it a bit more than my usual 'meh, I don't really like the city' comment. I guess there is a bit more to the city, the culture and stuff, but I still don't...get into it. Not my thing or just pure ignorance?

also, carolyn kept asking me things like, did I know this artist, or this book, or this movie, or this place, or this thing, and I hardly could say affirmative to any of it. I'm SO BORING. My knowledge amounts to nothing. What do I have to offer to anyone!? Sometimes I'm so ashamed of myself and filled with much self-pity.

teoh,

and break!

Wooo, I didn't realise I was looking so forward to easter break, but now that I'm on it, it's awesome!

I accidentally went on a splurge (apparently it's not according to hong) when I went to chadstone while waiting for hong to come out of uni. I had a vague idea of buying jeans, as my first pair that amanda bought me are ripping at the knee joint =[ anyway, I ended up buying some levi black jeans and a nice .yd shirt that I will wear to amanda's 21st and maybe ann's too. they each cost about 80 bucks each, the jeans were 25% so woo.

I would take pictures and pose (just cause I never get the chance) but I'll just save it for the parties.

I didn't do any April's fool jokes today! dammit, didn't remember until Hong reminded me. Looking forward to Blizzard's (computer game company), they always have good ones.

anyway, here's my reason for blogging:

most uncomfortable experience: wearing your underwear inside out....

... and backwards.

the things that happen when you don't get enough sleep and rush to uni.

teoh,